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When I Am Weak

That year, the word God gave me was STRENGTH. I felt empowered by the word as I imagined how I would use it. Physically: I would exercise regularly, add strength training, and make healthy food choices. Mentally: I'd read more non-fiction, learn from the biographies of great people. Spiritually: I'd spend more time studying and memorizing scripture.

And then came a single sentence that opened a vein and siphoned every drop of strength. I couldn't breathe. Sobs came in waves, triggered by random thoughts, unexpected memories. The walls closed in. Questions ricocheted, waking me from a sound sleep. Why? Why? And eventually . . . What now? But no answers came.

Have you been there? Have you heard the sentence that brings the verdict: Guilty. Betrayed. Rejected. Ruined. Terminal. Alone. 

I didn't have answers. I didn't have the faith to believe there would be joy in the morning. The future was forever altered because of the hole in my heart that would never fully heal. 

But this I did know: Though I felt alone, I wasn't. Though I was powerless, he wasn't. 

This wasn't the year God was going to increase my strength. This was the year I would lose it all. And he would show me his. 

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I wonder . . . how do those who live without that promise ever get to the point where they can draw a full breath? How do you go on if you don't know the One who will be your strength when yours is gone?

I wrote the above this morning, then found this song posted on Facebook by a man whose son committed suicide. Lord, without you we can't go on.

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Shelli Littleton on Tuesday, February 09, 2016 1:18 PM
Oh, so beautiful, Becky. I've been out of town ... trying to get caught up on everything. When we are weak ... God is with us. Emmanuel. Just beautiful. And I needed that reminder. I know it ... tucked in my heart ... but sometimes, you need to hear it. xoxo
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